• March 30, 2018 2:59pm

Ain’t it just crazy how the world paints people who are passionate? They paint us mad and absurd, or psychotic with a pinch of lunacy…and for what? Because i know what i want? I really am tired of it….I’m tired of people calling me dramatic and extra when I’m just being me in my most me state. 

I used to hide behind sheer curtains that gave dishonest impressions, allowing everyone to peer in only if i have a layer displayed, but no more. And that choice isn’t about time or anything like that, truly i am just tired. Tired of the effort and the stress to please people in a way that isn’t genuine. That isn’t to say that i’m lazy and no longer able to try, it just means that whatever i say or do now is because i actually feel it. When i care, it’s because i care, and when i love, i truly fucking love. These feelings aren’t hard to control, but relationships (i.e. friendships and romance) are just a whole other thing…

More now than ever do i see the hesitation in people’s speech as they mutter and murmur around me with clenched guts and keen eyes. I feel like I’m being put up on a display or I’m talking to an salesman who’s trying to sell me a product with his charming pitch and his absolutely gorgeous gestures. But fuck that, i don’t want it. i just want honest words and genuine intentions, i hate that it’s so hard for us all. And now that I’m here, I’m just an impatient child waiting for my friends to arrive, so that we can all play and just live life….